You can still smell the stench of cigarette smell on my blue sweater. Could it from last night or could it be from the night before that? I’m certainly far from enjoying my new found freedom. In fact, I’m wretched. I wept so much on my way home last night that one of my contact lenses almost came off while driving. Then as I was leaving the hotel, it eventually hit me that I’m on my own now. There’s probably going to be weekends spent more at home if I’m not working. Heck that, I’m going to have to figure out what to do every night from now on. Sure I’m feeling miserable and I bet he’s feeling the same too but maybe this could be good for both of us.
All in an instant, everything could change. Be it from a slipped of a word, a not-so-accidental kiss or perhaps the meaningless sex. How much some things could change everything instantly? Now, that’s a whole different matter altogether. I figured that most of the time, we intend to leave the past behind and speed to the unknown, the future. Now the problem arrives when we refuse to let change happen and cling on to our old habits. But honestly if we grasp on to the past too tight, the future may never come. Just a saying, really.
Now if you would excuse me, I need to put in my blue sweater for washing.
